We seek not to be Vicious memories of yesterday Nor idyllic visions of tomorrow For the former binds us to a sorrowful soil that will never bear new trees, And the latter creates ladders with legs that may break under the imbalanced weight of misplaced expectations. But oh the fright of living in what is […]Read more "The Immortal Nothingness"
I keep getting stuck in this rut of pushing people away because if I never build connections or trust with people, especially romantic relationships, I can avoid the deep heartbreak when they inevitably violate, betray me or try to seriously hurt or kill me. It’s only been since leaving Denver after being abandoned by my […]Read more "The Criminality Of Distrust"
I’m trying to ride the tidal wave Of shame and anger Me on the crippled raft Just wanting a second oar As my dark mind roars If I throw myself over and drown My distant friends won’t find my body Either way they will wear frowns Broken I left with a boat too shoddy Why […]Read more "Every Iceberg Has A Warm Heart To Dig To, Nestle In And Die And Die And Die And Freeze To Death Back Into Eternal Life Because He Now Knows The Most Brutal Of Winters So Can I Only Be A Forever And Ever Summer That Melts The Entire Ocean And Washes Away All The Collective Hurt Of A World Unaware Of The True Weight Or Cause Of The Long Drought Shadowed Over Our Playground Because Death Just Can’t Stand The Way We Want To Play Without Wounds So We Will Drown Him In His Own He Refuses To Treat"
Am I dying Or is pain being removed To allow the impossible Of everlasting joy? Am I impossibly weak For asking for outward love Because I can’t find it inside? Can I shuck away self denial Or is it perpetually me Does Eve/God truly love me Or just wanting to take the remains of my […]Read more "Eternal Doubt Is My True Love"