How could I see tomorrow? How could I know the past? Who am I if not capped? What am I without sorrow? Where am I if not stuck? When will I get it together? Why can’t I just remember? Where is my new luck? Exhausted without cause Exhausted by the nervous whys Locked in revolving […]

Read More Who What When Where Why How — How?

All ends well All sorted out But now all well out of sorts I try to rest this weary soul Battered by my own fearful steps Walked into the Halls of vampires Rising out of darkness toward Her light Seeking unconditional love within and without A passing phase without unknowing ears Can’t help others when […]

Read More Shuck Away These Draining Cords

Death when righteous is a thread Weaving itself through the fabric of life Balancing the Love With the comedic, Often unreliable Fear R you Death Or R you a Life

Read More The Righteous Thread

I. Frame them higher From the enchantment of Our chosen lows There is something true They’re someone more Their bruises not new Archaics unraveling Forgotten “unknowns” To frighten the chains If “She” is They If “He” is She “Then who am I?” Why can’t We just be We? Abandoned curiosity As we hunt in screens […]

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I need someone I need something To get me through the rain Heart restarting But on fire And I alone can’t hold on A weakness to let down The fans who amassed Can’t cool down my soul Guilt making the flames heavier Your Love is not enough Because I can’t feel the waves Of what […]

Read More Seasons Of The Mole

My life has been made difficult due to abuse from narcissistic individuals. Abuse from narcissistic parents has led to low self esteem and actual brain trauma, as I saw with my own eyes when I received neurofeedback in 2018, which included brain mapping. It’s led to emotional instability as a result of post traumatic stress […]

Read More Narcissistic vs. Low Emotional Intelligence Individuals

(*BEFORE YOU READ*: If you feel like you are at immediate risk of attempting suicide, please call a suicide hotline, your therapist if you have one, 911 or go to your nearest hospital.) The strong desire to want to end your life is not this grand negative we’ve been told it is. You might be […]

Read More Suicidality Is A Blessing Toward Freedom

I ruminate on the past because I am afraid of something negative that happened to me or that I did will happen again. So I ruminate on the future to try to find ways to plan to keep that from happening again. All the while I’ve been missing out on the present, in which I […]

Read More Fear Lets Go

Stay reliable Limit your libel To remain pliable For our dying avoidance moods Then Move into better rooms Haven stained walls Clarity sage Good stench Hoods to cover Lighter rains Fishing poles for the fun Of subtle boredom delayed The doubled up Padded cell illusions Of our ever arcade Interdependency Independence Prevails

Read More Lighter Rains

Her sweetness hurts Like setting a broken bone I thought would never heal So rapidly with a whispered touch She knows the cure Because her green crystal Is cracked in the same spots

Read More Blistered Remedy